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For 27 years, I lived somebody else’s life. Now reclaiming what is rightfully mine, one story at a time.

I like to live inside my head, strongly dislike rules, and yeah, I write about stuff

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I grew up in a collectivistic society, where the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” wasn’t open-ended.

The only acceptable answer, especially for those who performed better than average at school, was a Doctor or an Engineer. …

A realistic day in my life, featuring my inner critic

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There’s some loose hair at the back of my neck, and I am currently fighting the urge to chop them off. With the wind from my fan, they brush against my skin, creating a sensation akin to a bug crawling on my body.

And while not knowing how to process…


Consider yourself officially warned

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Allow me to transport you to early 2019, when the times were simpler, and crowds gathered for no discernible purpose whatsoever. A mediocre post-apocalyptic horror movie was randomly released on Netflix, wherein demons drove people suicidal through the gift of sight.

We helped the movie producers earn some serious moolah…


Around the familiar bend, awaiting the wings of hope

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When the journey’s blurry,
Makes scarce sense,
It’s me who’s lacking,
Sieve wrong from right.

Can’t trace the beginning,
How to push forward?
Stuck and buried under,
No comfort on the horizon.

Fancied not knowing,
Meet riveting rest stops,
Sleep soundly today,
Awaken gently tomorrow.

A dry forehead,
Rhythmic beating of…


Not why ask how

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The fan made a familiar clicking sound, and Maggie looked up reflexively. She'd been feeling out of control lately, like a creature of habit and simultaneously flighty, who flinches at the slightest sounds.

She adjusted the temperature of the room as it began to feel like nighttime. A fan wasn't…


Do you like drowning?

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Close your eyes and imagine the brightest yet most alluring shade of red and pink. Now think about holding in your hand a firm, plush and juicy heart-shaped object. What you will feel in this present moment will stir your hearts, minds, and loins simultaneously.

I am the trifecta of…


It seems impossible, but I don’t trust myself anymore

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Drove into the night,
Leaving my baggage behind,
No one really knows,
What comes after the leap.

Best and worst days,
Blur together into each other,
Can’t decipher the goings,
Maybe it’s all in my head.

The car stops all the time,
More stalls than starts.
Can I repair it yet again?


A hopeful start, beauty lies only in hindsight

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Chasing dreams,
And turning the tables,
A quest to find myself,
Travel to the source.

Maps out the window,
Who I was supposed to be.
I’d had simply enough,
Life’s too short, I thought,
To keep pretending.

Taking on uncharted territories,
Those unchosen roads,
Unplanned and mazy journeys,
With only the fire within…

Because sometimes you just need a win

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I’ve been struggling with a bunch of stuff lately, some important and some not-so-important. This is apparent in my lack of articles written this month, which you may or may not have noticed.

The thing is, I’ve been feeling trapped. There’s no better way to explain this, except like being…


If not now, then when?

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Breathe in, breathe out
gasping for air,
oh, what I would give,
to just let go —

For a minute,
a sec or an eternity,
float in the darkness,
eyes fully closed.

Endless travels in loopy paths,
false positives and mantras,
searching for something real,
maybe just a good day.

Debdutta Pal

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